Hello everyone,
I'd like to clarify first as of this moment I am not coming home early. When I sent that email last week we had not recieved any news on shortening of missions or what could happen. I currently live in a constant state of unknown and it's driving me crazy. I am afraid to say this email is going to be rough and I'm not about to sugar coat things so read on if you wish if not don't worry about it.
Monday as I noted last week we went bright and early again. Found out we lost several missionaries. 13 in total that sister Roberts and I knew. I was able to talk to my family for a while so that's nice. Other than that not too much else.
Tuesday wasnt super eventful. Had district council over video chat so that was fun. I wasnt feel good so I fell asleep for a bit. Made friendship bracelets for all the missionaries in my district. A member brought is panada Express for dinner. YUM. Texted who we could for the remainder of the night. Yeah.
Wednesday was probably the worst day I've had on the mission. I woke up not feeling the best physically and emotionally. We had a call to do family home evening as a zone. It was really fun. Sadly didn't last long and depression kicked in for me. I had zero motivation to do anything and I ended up a puddle mess on our couch for most the day. We watched the studio c face to face which perked me up a bit and then we had an active member lesson. Sadly it didnt last long. We ended up receiving news that transfers were being moved to Friday. Our transfer calls would come the following morning. My heart sunk. We called the Sisters and we all ended up crying. The unknown is one of my biggest fears and sadly I'm full fledge living in it right now. Everyday I hold my breath not knowing what's to come. I hit a point that I no longer want to be a missionary. I wanted to go home so badly. I still do a bit.
Thursday was a bit better. We anxiously awaited news of transfers. To our relief we are not transferring. Our whole district is the same. Blessings. I then had a meeting with our mission therapist and it definitely helped me feel better. I had a renewed drive and some new tactics under my belt to help me. Wish they lasted longer. We went on a walk and picture 1 is of our new sandals we got. Sister wanlass, our mission mom, brought us chick fil a for dinner. She's seriously the best. We ended up just chilling and watching the face to face with Lindsey Stirling.
Friday was kind of productive. I actually did my hair for the first time in a week. We ended up spending the day crafting. I worked on some more friendship bracelets and sister Roberts started making hats. Fun times. We luckily had a call with someone were teaching! Finally! The caulk's who we normally do service for brought us a bunch of food and goodies. So sweet of them. I made a hat! Picture 2 is of it.
Saturday. Yeah lot of up and down with quarantine. Sister Roberts wasnt feeling good so she crashed in the couch for a bit. I ended up cleaning our apartment, washed my bedding, and worked on another hat. We sat and discussed a bit of our frustrations. Our mission does not have Facebook so all of our contacting is done just by calls or texts so we've been doing our best to stay productive. Sister hunter brought us some more yarn and church movies. So that was good. Picture 3 is of sister Roberts and I in our hats.
Sunday was hard. We are still not allowed to take the sacrament so that's hard. Did come follow me with our zone which was really good. Crawled into our fort and worked on hats. I ended up passing out because I didnt sleep well. We have a bunch of damaged book of mormons so we are taking pages out and marking them before sending them out to people. Should be fun. Had corn beef hash for dinner. So good. Worked on hats and just worked to not loose our minds.
Here we are at another p day. I'm sorry this email is not more uplifting. I'm trying so hard to stay positive but this is all so hard. I've never missed home as much as I do right now but I also know it won't be too much better back home either. Just a constant battle to stay sane.
I hope you've all had a great week. Love you all!
Love,
Sister Sydney Hanks 
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